Applications, applications, and more applications

There is something about filling out job applications.  It's like you're baring your soul to these (to you essentially faceless) people and seeing what they will do to it.

Don't get me wrong, there's a thrill about hitting that SUBMIT button.  It's exciting, you wonder if this will be the one.  I love it.  I'm positive each and every time, that this will be the one that equals a new job for the fall.

Then there's no phone call.

No return email.

Just blank, stark nothingness.

I'm still positive.  This year is more promising than last.  I have a better resume, more experience. Now it's just waiting for the job where I will be the right fit.  

If I'm not the right person for a particular job then I don't want it.  That's the thing about this career that I've chosen, it's important.  In just about any other industry you can go to work and not love it.  You can go in day after day and hate your coworkers.  You go, punch your time sheet, zone out while you're there, and then you go home where you don't have to think about it until the next morning.

Teachers can't do that.  This job is all encompassing.  You have to have a passion for it.  Is everyday the best day? Probably not.  At some point you will come home and cry over it.  You will have days where the kids are mean, you will have days where you just want to call in sick and sit on your couch in sweat pants eating cake frosting out of the container.  

BUT

 

unlike other jobs, you CAN'T DO THAT!  You have to be there for your students.  Sometimes you might be the only positive they have in a day.  You might be the person that inspires them to do something amazing.  You might teach the person who will one day cure cancer!  

That's why when I fill out a plethora of applications I stay positive.  So what if I wasn't the person school XYZ needed, that just means another person is who they needed to inspire their students.  I get it.  That just means my students are still out there waiting for me.  It's all about fit.  Not every pair of jeans can be your favorite.  Not all people are chocolate ice cream people, I'd rather sit down with a bag of Doritos than a tub of Rocky Road any day.  

Soon, I will be a school's Doritos when everyone else is Rocky Road.

Until then.  I fill out applications almost daily.  It's terrifying and awesome all at the same time :)